Saturday, June 30, 2007
Growing up, I was apart of a family, that wasn't really a family. We were related by blood, but not by love. It was a sad, lonely life growing up in that family. They weren't necessarily mean, no, just....loveless. Their concerns in life was more towards themselves than other members of the family. This attitude was a source of many contentions and conflict.
Now, it wouldn't have been so bad, if I wasn't the youngest (in a family of six). It wouldn't have been so bad if both of my parents hadn't passed away by the time I was seventeen. As strange as it may seem, during these hard, hard times, we were all faithfully involved in a church.
As a young adult, I was in need emotionally and spiritually. Surrounded by a bevy of Christians, in which my family also considered themselves Christians. I was surrounded by Christians who were uncomfortable with my needs. Christians who insinuated my situation was result of "hidden sin" or a curse handed down by God. I was rebuffed, it seemed, at every turn. No, love and support from my own family, no love and support from my church. This was the first church I was a member of. It sparked a beginning of church searching and attending which was to last 13 years. Sadly, I've only encountered variations of the same mindset since then.
I THANK GOD, my Father, who indeed was and is a FATHER to me, that I was not lead away from Him, as "a little child" by these offences. Matthew 18 I THANK GOD I was able to differentiate between Him, His Son and the condition of church today. It is not my intention, today, to write about His mercy. It goes without saying, that without HIS LOVE and tender mercies, I would not be the strong, confident woman I've become.
What I want to do, instead, is ask you personally, those of you who attend a church, how is your faith as explained in the context of James 2:14-26 ? How is your church's faith, as explained in the context of James 2:14-26 ? I'm not referring to the varying projects and missionary efforts, I've been apart of churches who were missionary-minded. I'm talking about that one person in your church who seems, a bit more needy than others. Whose clothes seem less expensive than others. Whose car is at least fifteen years old. Whose eyes seemed filled with the desire for compassion and mercy. Anyone can go to Africa. Anyone can traipse in uncharted jungles, but it takes a person with heart to recognize a brother or sister in need (spiritual, emotional, physical) and GIVE accordingly, unconditionally.
After so many years, my family hasn't changed much. They still consider themselves Christians and are involved with varying denominations and "beliefs". We live separate lives with little or no contact with one another.
I find myself hoping against hope, that I would experience the unity and love Christ prayed for, John 17:20-26, in my lifetime, in the midst of a nation inundated with churches.This Sunday, as you prepare for church, remember that person, sitting in your pew, with the sad eyes...that was me.
"Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world." James 1:27
Friday, June 29, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
I don't know about you, but as I grow in my relationship with the Lord I feel more "woman" than I was before. I mean, it's like this...my identity as a woman, wife and mother rests solely upon Him, upon His creation of me.
When I accepted His son as my savior and received the anointing of the Holy Spirit. I was more "me" than I ever was before. Maybe that doesn't make any sense to you, maybe it does. It's the wholeness that I love with Him. The sense of feeling "right" by the way of who, I am as a woman.
There are many parameters upon us. Many demands. Many opinions and do's and don'ts. Many guilts. But there are many victories as well. A birth of a long awaited child, the respect of your husband and his desire to protect you. When all is said and done, ultimately, I am defined by His love.
This is why I am woman.
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Do you have a thorn in your side? I do. In times of trials, every minute is a battle for my faith. At times, I find myself crying out for mercy and then, I understand that while He is merciful, He is also purposeful.
He says to me, "Count it all joy."
"Yes, joy. For the trying of your faith worketh patience. Let patience have her perfect work, so that you may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing." James 1:2-4
So each day, I battle. Every hour, I fight. Every minute I paste a pained smile over my mind. While I wait patiently for Him. All the while, rebuking the Devil's lies that He (my Father) has forsaken me. What I realize....eventually....while I am without, a slow recognition begins to form. A miraculous transformation. I SEE His daily provision. I AM waiting patiently upon the Lord.
So, bless this thorn! And count it all joy! I still battle and still I fight. This will be my lot until the Lord returns on high or until He calls me home. But, as I collect thorns throughout this life, that pained smile becomes a bit less pained.
So today, Father I praise you, I lift your name up with a thorn on my side. For I know you discipline those who you love. May you strengthen me and the calling you've placed upon my spirit and all those who may read this post. All those who have thorns. May you be glorified.
In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.
"For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth"
Monday, June 25, 2007
When Adam and Eve bit the apple in the Garden, so long ago. It was a catalyst. I imagine in my mind's eye that there was an invisible, quiet moving and shaking as their eyes were "opened". I imagine...mournfulness. Painful, anguish upon concession that a grievous harm had been done. It had to be soul shaking... it had to be as...death. When the blasphemous deed has been consummated in their mind, translated into their heart and devastated their souls.
Now they found each other alone...their Father no longer...available to nourish their bodies...their souls... He cannot be apart of their lives any longer for they are now...unclean, defiled and rebellious.
They must leave the haven of provision. They must till the barren land. They must birth their children in this land ripe with sorrow. By the sweat of their brow they now work, until...they die.
who dares interfere with the love a father has for his son? Who would dare get between a mother and her newborn baby? Nothing has power against the Father's love. Not rebellion nor death.
We have, by the power and blood of Christ Jesus, been reconciled unto the Father. We have the ESSENCE of Him, the ANOINTING of Him.
We have....what Adam and Eve lost.
Why do we doubt his love, why do we not trust Him fully? Why do we obsess of our unworthiness to receive him? Why do we plague our minds with insecurities when we have the LOVE a Father has for his child?
We don't need anything, but the acceptance of Christ's sacrifice, which is WORTHY of everything, all and beyond we can give praise for. The sacrifice that gives us BACK what was lost. To dwell with Him. And live in a haven of spiritual provision. To receive nourishment to our souls. To hear Him, yes...speak to Him. You are His and He is yours through the courtesy of His Son.
So protect it. Protect what was lost and now is found. Let nothing interfere with a Father's Love.
Go ahead...read the book, spend some time with the Him. You don't have to understand everything you read...you just have to believe him...
"For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 8:38-39
Sunday, June 24, 2007
I have heard many sermons, read many books on the topic of "effective prayer". It wasn't until my relationship with Him had blossomed and through Him I overcame debilitating issues that prevented me from praying confidently to be heard, and humbly, as not to be rebuked. Because of my personal prayer experiences and my studying of the Word, I believe effective prayer cannot be taught, but, instead, it must be received.
Bear with me, please read on with your bibles open...
John chapter 15 in all it's beauty, explains the intricate "vine and branches" relationship between us, Christ and the Father.
Take note of verse 7:
"IF ye abide in me, AND my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you."
The conditions attached to "ask what ye will and it shall be done unto you", is we first MUST abide in Him AND His words abide in us.
These conditions are of utmost importance, as without it we will be "fruitless". As branches we, CANNOT bear fruit without the vine.
Understanding the conditions as said by the scriptures... the question then becomes how do we abide in Christ? How does His "words" abide in us?
I direct your attention to Ephesians 3:17-21."That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye being rooted and grounded by love..."
Faith is how we abide in Him... Love is how He abides in us...
Listen to what He says, in John 15:10, "
IF ye keep my commands, ye SHALL abide in my love..."
Understanding the results of the conditions listed by scripture, the next question becomes, what ARE His commands? John 15:12-14
"This is my command, that ye love one another as I have loved you..."
In spite of the If/Then logic of this scripture, what is illogical to the unbelieving mind/heart, is the acceptance of the blood shed sacrifice of Christ through Faith and the understanding of His Love through His sacrifice for us.This is how prayer is received... Ephesians 3:19
"And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye may be filled with the fulness of God"
I have heard Christians confess their uncertainty of grace and their salvation through Him. If there is any doubt of His acceptance of you, then there is doubt of His love for you. If there is doubt of His love for you, then your prayers are not asked in faith. "...let him ask in faith, nothing wavering..." James 1:6; Hebrews 11:6
This is what I believe, prayer is where the heart (love) is, for where your heart (love) is, there your requests will also be.
May we all as believers be a vineyard of prayer so the glory of God may be revealed.....
I use the KJV for all scripture listed in this post. You are most welcome to use another translation. All caps and italics listed in scriptures are mine. I encourage you to read the scriptures in context of the chapters they are in. May His joy remain in you, may your joy be full!
Friday, June 22, 2007
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Some of you may wonder, how it is I get my church since I'm not a member of an organization. I'm blessed to be married to a man who loves the Lord, just as much, if not more than I do. Through him, my husband, is where I've came to be the woman that I am in the Lord. He, (husband) has been (one of) the instrument in the molding, shaping of my faith. Teaching, me about bible study, and the tools for further clarification (concordance, bible dictionary etc.). Not only is he my family and my friend. He is my church. And I love him beyond words can say. He has been and is the Lord's provision for my walk in faith on this earth!
Yesterday, we were sharing in the Word. Praising and glorifying the Lord. He shared with me something that I've always known, but it was put in a way that was so relevant. I wanted to share here in this blog.
A bit of history first. My husband has studied the New Testament for years now, and he is focusing his attention on the Old Testament. He started reading Leviticus 13 (59 verses long) and 14 (57 verses long), the law of leprosy. If you take a look and read only a few verses, you will see that this chapter is long, detailed and repetitive. My husband confessed to me that he could never seem to finish that chapter in spite of his best intentions. He would fall asleep. And attempt to read it again and fall asleep. This chapter details the law in where one, who has leprosy, must do in order to be cleansed, in the time of Moses.
My husband happened to be discussing the 7th chapter of Luke with his father the other day. When, thinking about his attempts to read about and be knowledgeable of Leviticus 13 and 14. He read this verse:
- Then Jesus answering said unto them, Go your way, and tell John (the Baptist) what things ye have seen and heard; how that the blind see, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, to the poor the gospel is preached. Luke 7:22 (my italics and clarification of John)
This is the liberty found in Christ, the burdensome requirements of being cleansed. He gives a spiritual cleansing that was done through His blood, thus freeing us from the leprous disease of sin. Being diseased with sin, causing a separation from the Father, but through His blood shed sacrifice we are restored through him by faith!
- For the law was given by Moses, but grace and truth came by Jesus Christ. John 1:17
Praise, honor and glory to the Lord of Hosts almighty! His grace has been manifested through His Son. May every knee bow, in heaven and on the earth and hail the power of His name!
Thursday, June 21, 2007
My decision to remove myself from the tradition of church (modern organized association) attendance stems from a need to separate, from what seems to be, an ineffectual force against these times. (Please read my post "The Integrity of Fellowship and Accountability)
If you have read Acts 1 and 2. The power of the Holy Spirit during the beginning of the early church was undeniable. The Spirit was a converter of hearts of minds during that time, allowing the apostles to overcome language barriers, healing etc. Today, speaking in tongues seems to be something completely different. Or at least 1 Corinthians 14 tells me something different than what I see today.
There are many who condemn the history of "church" (I use the "" because any church that does not promote the love of Christ is not His John 13:34-35) And rightfully so, it is a ugly history of slayings in "His name". There are also many who ignore the history of it.
All the while the meaning of church has been obscured, muddied and damaged... Damaged to a point where people, have had negative experiences with it, and condemn all association with church, even Jesus Christ Himself. This is a sad thing, when one struggles to understand who He is because of a church experience. Is is a terrible conclusion when one decides the Father is not accessible because of the condition of church. It is a terrible injustice when one turned away from "Living Water" so that they may never thirst, because church has been a stumbling block in one's quest for Him.
It is my hope to protect the integrity of the meaning of church. First and foremost spiritual (Holy Spirit), aided by, or expounded by, the gathering of like-minded believers (those who by faith receive Christ Jesus blood shed sacrifice). If there is a lack of either one or the other (or both) it really isn't church. (Please read Ephesians 4:1-16)
"But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his." Romans 8:9; 1Corinthians 3:16, Romans 8:14
Jesus had declared to the woman at the well God's desire for those to worship Him in "spirit and in truth" for God is a spirit. John 4:21-24 When I read the scriptures in context, John 7-30, can't help but, receive the point that Jesus is emphasizing the spirituality of salvation. He talks to her about "Living Water" that only He gives, and goes on to express the Father's desire of "true worshippers (that) shall worship Him in spirit and in truth". That is FIRST and FOREMOST emphasized. The consistency of this message can be found through out the gospels and epistles. Romans 8:1, Romans 8 (whole chapter in context with the chapter before it)
Far be it from me to contribute to the unproductive opinions, philosophies that condemn, but instead, promote the Word of God and fellowship with Him.
To those who have been burned by their church experience....
Let me share with you this scripture from Isaiah 66:1-2
- Thus saith the LORD, The heaven is my throne, and the earth is my footstool: where is the house that ye build unto me? and where is the place of my rest?
For all those things hath mine hand made, and all those things have been, saith the LORD: but to this man will I look, even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit, and trembleth at my word. (my italics)
- But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart: that is, the word of faith, which we preach;
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. (my italics)
Who is he that overcometh the world, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God? 1John 5:5
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Have you elected to birth your children (child) in the comfort of your home? I would love to hear your story! Three of my five children were born in the comfort of our home.
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Born Free by Laura Shanley
Midwives Alliance of North America (MANA)
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
It's not my job go condemn or encourage anyone to "leave" church. It's not my intention to lump all churches as "bad" or "unfruitful".
It IS my job to promote the Word for the purposes of edification.
Who am I but a lowly servant of the Lord? Who am I but a sinner saved by the blood of the Lamb, that I would tell anyone what they should or should not do?
I believe and receive the power of the Holy Spirit, the essence of God and I believe through the Word, others can also receive Christ in TRUTH.
For who is he that overcometh, but he that believeth that Jesus is the Son of God? 1 John 5:5.
Jesus makes it clear that the Spirit's JOB is to CONVICT the world of sin, righteousness and judgement. John 16:7-12
Jesus tells us that he sends us as sheep in the midst of wolves, but reading further, he teaches that we are to be WISE as serpents and HARMLESS as doves. Matt. 10:16
Now I am not a member of an organized church association, but that does not disqualify me from promoting the Word. It also does not mean that I cannot be a child of God, or do not have a intimate relationship with Him.
Additionally, Let's not forget that Paul was a vigorous persecutor of the Church, before he came to be a Lover of Christ! Can we deny the power of God to overcome any and all circumstances? Let us instead focus on edification with love as opposed to condemnation.
I welcome any comments you may have....
Saturday, June 16, 2007
To my husband, I wish a blessed father's day. I've never seen a father more dedicated to his children than you! May the Lord receive your prayers for our children and manifest them. May the fruit of your hands be multiplied a hundredfold as Christ multiplied the bread and fish! Our children love you dearly...I know they will be wonderful men and women for all the hard work you do, and your goal to be at home with them!
Happy Father's Day!!!
From all of us!
I am but a sinner washed in the precious blood of the Lamb, led of the Spirit to share my testimony of my walk in Him. I am not affiliated with any denomination, doctrine or organized church association. I am a part of the spiritual body of Christ, in this light, I am a member of HIS CHURCH, as the heavenly Father desires those to worship Him in spirit and in truth. John 4:23-24 In the midst of various churches and teachings, my commitment is to Christ and Him alone.
With that in mind, here's what I believe:
- Jesus is The Christ, the Son of God, born of a virgin, crucified, rose from the dead and is seated as King in heaven.
- Who will, in the fullness of time, will return to receive us unto Him. John 14:1-4
- His sacrifice served as atonement for our sins. Belief/trust/faith in Him translates into forgiveness and reconciliation with God the Father. John 3:16
- His departure from earth brought forth the Holy Spirit, who is God, dwells within those who accept Christ’s sacrifice as atonement for their sins. Acts 1 & 2; John 16:7
I study out the KJV bible and will use this version for all my dialogue regarding scripture. The Bible GateWay website is a wonderful source of bible study reference that has various translations of the bible as well as The Blue Letter Bible. Also, www.eliyah.com/lexicon.html is an online concordance.
(updated July 2010)
Thursday, June 14, 2007
I want to clearly state that I am not against church attending and any kind of fellowship that automatically comes with it. When one is a Believer of the most high, one automatically has a desire to dwell amongst and offer praise, with lifting of hands and voices to their Savior with LIKE-MINDED brothers and sisters as a part of the body of Christ.
What has been continually neglected, whitewashed or glossed over is that church today and church yesterday is NOT the church Christ established so long ago (as demonstrated in the beginning of the book of Acts, the POWER of the Holy Spirit). There are vast multitudes of churches that profess themselves Christ-minded, yet do not adhere and have taken leave of the principles established by the Author of the Church.
For the past 13 years I have sought, attended, been a member of several churches. I have spent one to two years or more at each church (not including the time spent looking for churches) only to discover the Word being watered down or politics taking precedence to the integrity of the Word.
All the while, my husband and I would have the most life altering, spirit filled bible learning sessions. The unity of our spirits feeding off of each other and growing in the knowledge of the scripture, in the strength of our walk in Him. Reading the Word in its wholesomeness (chapters and books of the Word from beginning to end, within the context of the scripture) we would take home sermon notes and compare it to the Word. And almost always, the pastor's sermon notes would not even be close to what the Word was saying. It always seemed, that we were at odds with, or had a "different" understanding than other church members who seemed to replace full bible study with a Sunday sermon or a book written by a Christian author.
Listen to what Paul says in the first book of Corinthians 1:10-12
I beseech you, brethren, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that ye all speak the same thing, and that there be no divisions among you; but that ye be perfectly joined together in the same mind and in the same judgement.
For it hath been declared unto me of you, my brethren, by them which are of the house of Chloe, that there are contentions among you.
Now this I say, that every one of you saith, I am of Paul; and I of Apollos; and I of Cephas; and I of Christ.Can we stand in the midst of varying denominations and splinter churches who profess Christianity as their practice and belief and say this scripture is not relevant or even applicable to these times???
Now bear with me, I actually have a point in repeating myself for the umpteenth time. I don't think any church attending or non church attending believer can deny that there are divisions (verse 12) and, dare I say contentions, within the body. Can any one deny the warnings prevalent and urgent in the Word are not applicable or even relevant towards Christianity as a whole today? 2Peter 2:1, Titus 1:16, 2 Corinthians 11:3-4, 1 John 2:18-19, Jude
If this (referring to the above point) is true of the modern church, how can there be fellowship if there is no unity? How can there be accountability if there is no likeness of mind? Acts 4:32, Acts 2:44
Must I compromise the integrity of fellowship for the sake of fellowshipping? So where do I go for fellowship in this day and age of the Church? Where do I go for accountability?
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Let us remember how simple and liberating the blood-shed salvation of our Lord is:
"But what saith it? The word is nigh thee, even in thy mouth, and in thy heart: that is, the word of faith, which we preach;
That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.
For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation"
"For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved"
Forget not the simplicity of salvation of the prisoner nailed alongside with Christ.
"And he said unto Jesus, Lord, remember me when thou comest into thy kingdom. And Jesus said unto him, Verily I say unto thee, To day shalt thou be with me in paradise." Luke 23:43
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
No. I am not a affiliate of an organized church association. I have been scolded and reprimanded by those who believe church attendance is vital, if not conditional to my salvation.
Yes. I've heard it repeatedly. "Forsake not the gathering of yourselves..." "Accountability towards one another...", "You're on a path to shipwreck...."
The more I read my Word, the more confidently I stand in FAITH that church lies not within the confines of a physical structure, but church lies within the confines of the spirit. The Holy spirit. The spirit of TRUTH.
Jesus declares to Peter "Upon this rock I will build my church" after Peter declared Jesus' majesty as God's Son through faith as it was revealed to Peter from the Father.
Jesus says to the woman at the well...."the hour cometh and is now when the true worshippers shall worship the Father in spirit and in truth: for the Father seeketh such to worship Him"
vs. 24 Jesus emphasizes "God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth."
Acts 2:44 describes the characteristics of authentic church "And all that believed were together, and had all things common"
If you read the first two chapters in full, you cannot help but recognize the MAJOR player in the building of the Church, the Holy Spirit.
This certainly does not describe today's vast variety of organized church associations of Christianity today.
"What about accountability?" I have been asked. I am continually amazed that anyone who confesses belief in the trinity would even ask such a question. I direct them to read John 16:6-8.
Christ says to his disciples,
"But because I have said these things unto you, sorrow hath filled your heart.
Nevertheless I tell you the truth; It is expedient for you that I go away: for if I go not away, the Comforter will not come unto you; but if I depart, I will send him unto you.
And when he is come, he will REPROVE the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of judgment"
So I remain purposefully and wonderfully unchurched by today's standard of Christianity (as opposed to biblical standards which is spiritual). All the while I am fully and powerfully churched through the blood of the Lamb and Comforter, the Holy Spirit of Truth! Glory be to the Lamb of God, may you quickly come!
I DO recognize that it is possible to have genuine organized church associations that worship biblical and truthfully. My goal is not to NOT encourage church attendance, but rather encourage growing spiritually through FAITH by the reading of the Word. And to share the testimony of my own spiritual walk with the LORD. May God prosper you in the knowledge of Him!
For those who love Christ and desire fellowship with like-minded believers, how would one begin to figure out in the midst of a buffet of churches which demonination or non demonination that teaches and fellowships truthfully upon the principles taught by Christ?
I've watched some of my relatives go from Mormon to Baptist to Jehovah's Witness within the past ten years. Such confusion!
We know that God is not the author of confusion. 1 Corinthians 14:33.
It becomes more and more clear to me that church today and church yesterday (original church as demonstrated in the book of Acts) are vastly different. For one, there was unity and oneness of mind. Acts 2:44 "All that believed were together, and had all things in common"
Today, there are varying demoninations of Christianity that don't believe the same things or even have the same bible.
Far be it from me to be "antichurch". It is my intention for all those who read this blog, to promote and uplift the unchanged, unaltered Word of God as infallible. It is my purpose to encourage all those who diligently seek Him (Heb.11:6) find Him first in the Word with a firm belief in Him.
"If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him.
But let him ask in faith, nothing wavering. For he that wavereth is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and tossed." James 1:5-6